Shop-a-holic

If you are like most of us you love to shop. Spending money makes you feel good and that is fine..... when done in moderation. But for a person like me it can become a vicious cycle. I feel bad i shop, i LOVE retail therapy as it is called, I call it self medication. It gives me a huge rush it is almost a high like you get from a drug, especially when it is on sale. But then i realize i spent the money for a certain bill, and i crash hard and get depressed again.So then i shop again and realize more bill money is gone and get depressed again. I have shopped so much I was hundreds of dollars overdrawn. This cycle is soooo hard to get out of almost impossible. And i have to be careful to not just switch things i am self-medicating with. I know some people out there will say get over it life is not a bed of roses, dude i have tried it wound me up in the hospital. Another will say i get depressed but i don't shop like that. Good for you i am glad but ya know what i bet you self-mediicate in another way. I am not proud of myself when this happens in fact i am so ashamed I am sick from it i have been known to lie about where things came from. Just beause i get so shaking and sick from it knowing that it is going to be bad. It has caused many fight , bad fight, some that have almost caused us to sepperate. This is such a hard battle to fight and it is one i fight everyday. Some days i stand tall in victory and others i am slumped in defeat but i am always on my feet